Thursday, April 22, 2010

Working full time

Monday I started my new job. My last job was only 20-25 hours at the most a week. My new job is 40 hours so I've finally gone full time. I gotta say working 3 days at 9 to 5 and 2 days 1 to 9 is harder than I thought it would be.

When I work 9 to 5, I get up and get the kids ready for school and onto the bus. Then I get back home and get ready for work. Pick them up from my parents at 5:30. Run home and make dinner, play with the kids for a few minutes. Get them a bath and put them to bed. And by 8:30/9, I'm so whopped that I still haven't gotten my house cleaned.

Working 1 to 9 gives me a chance to get a few things done during the day but I miss putting my kids to bed. I know my husband is quite capable of putting them to bed but I miss doing that. But when I worked part time I worked til 10 or 11 so things aren't any different.

But the extra money will be so nice and a relief when I'm doing the bills to know there is quite a bit of extra money now!

I have to sit down and come up with a schedule of things I can get done the days I work 1 to 9 and the days I work 9 to 5. The mess is driving me nuts but until I get used to juggling everything the house is the least of my concerns.

So how do you other working moms cope? Do you keep a tight schedule or just go with the flow?

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Conflicted emotions!

I've mentioned on and off that my nephew is a shaken baby survivor. In May, it will be one year. This coming week his attacker goes to court for what he did. He was arrested this past week and released.

I'm so conflicted on how I feel. I want the man to pay for what he did. I do! My nephew suffered with seizures, brain bleeds, he is 17 months old and can only army crawl. He can't sit up and he can't walk. For a while, after the accident he was blind. I have a LOT of anger. I have anger that I was being blamed. I was his full time baby sitter but I hadn't watched him for over a week and hadn't even seen him. And the man who did it, tried to blame me. How dare he! How dare he try to ruin my life because he had a weak moment. He lived 2 houses up. Why wouldn't he have pounded on my door, called or whatever if he couldn't handle the little boy anymore? There was no excuse! None!

But the other emotion I have is sadness. The man has 3 little girls. They are going to be without their dad. And that saddens me because he has never hurt them. And now they are going to hurt, they are going to miss their dad. They are going to be the ones that suffer. I don't think the man meant to hurt him. But he did. Now he has to pay. And he has to hurt those little girls when he tells them WHY he is in jail.

My heart just hurts. It hurts for my nephew who will never be the same. It hurts for my SIL for the life she almost had, for the trust she put in this man. And it hurts for those precious girls who did nothing but still have to deal with this going public now and being embarrassed.

I don't think I can even explain the drama that this caused in our family. People no longer talk to each other. It's crazy!

But as bad as I feel, I just want it over. I want this part over. So everyone can shut up about it. So people aren't whispering about what is going on.

Sigh....soon. Maybe soon this part will be over. We will never forget what happened but maybe people can deal with this soon and stop talking like it just happened.

Friday, April 9, 2010

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